Hey There, Bloggary

So, one day I spent all this time on my blog, deleting dumb posts and giving it a whole new look and spending hours figuring out how to put a picture in the header, etc. and then I stopped writing things on it.

I don't know why. Maybe when I started doing this it was filling some sort of need I had to pour out my feelings and thoughts and things I liked and didn't like and things I was doing- kind of like a diary.  And now I don't feel that need.  And I'm busy! I used to be busy back then too, but now I am trying to be more productive- not waste so much time online.  I'd rather garden than pour out my innermost feelings, or paint, or take a walk or read a book. Doing things makes my life better instead of all this navel gazing. It could probably be described as living.

Life has been hard, too.  I lie awake at night thinking about it all, and I don't really feel like writing about it, after doing all that thinking,  because then I'd have think about it even more. I think about what I would write in my head, and it makes me sad, so I don't bother.  Maybe someday, if this journey culminates in wisdom, I will sit down and share that wisdom with the world. Until then, I'll keep it in my head and hope it has a happy ending.

So, Bloggary, I kind of miss you, but not that much right now. I hope you don't feel used- you helped me when I needed you, but my head is above water these days and I'm feeling healthy and strong. Which is a very good thing. I might be back some day. We'll see….